I think I'm much better off with my mouth shut.
Idk why I felt confident to interact in conversation today......
So I smiled and said something to someone at work "omg I didn't even realise how long it took us with a certain task! I thought it was X time but it was Y time"
She just looked at me, then looked back down at her phone. Np response. Not even a face expression. I always end up made to feel embarrassed if I talk to people. I just feel that maybe.... maybe I'm extremely annoying. Just my presence ticks people off maybe. Idk how I manage to do that. I'm mostly quiet. I'm just not interesting. I have nothing to say. Someone else could have said exactly that but because they'd be far more charismatic, people would listen and respond. I wonder what's missing. Why I can't be that person. I just want to be treated like a normal human being.
So I smiled and said something to someone at work "omg I didn't even realise how long it took us with a certain task! I thought it was X time but it was Y time"
She just looked at me, then looked back down at her phone. Np response. Not even a face expression. I always end up made to feel embarrassed if I talk to people. I just feel that maybe.... maybe I'm extremely annoying. Just my presence ticks people off maybe. Idk how I manage to do that. I'm mostly quiet. I'm just not interesting. I have nothing to say. Someone else could have said exactly that but because they'd be far more charismatic, people would listen and respond. I wonder what's missing. Why I can't be that person. I just want to be treated like a normal human being.
31-35, F
