I lost My Job

I'm no self starter
I'm no leader
I'm often a scared little boy dreamer
Been that way all of my life

I recently lost my job
My fault maybe
Depends who believes my explanation and reason
And I'm here hoping and believing
That something is going to come to me fast

Its not like I am not trying
But I keep my crying inside myself
I'm not always smiling
But I keep on believing
That whatever will come, will come when its time

People were always coming my way
Telling me of their troubles
And I'd be there listening and trying to help
And secretly inside be me removing myself from their struggles
Thinking I hope I'll not find myself where they are at

But here I am where they were
Struggling and crying
Trying to catch up in this electronic world
Feeling so alone, like I don't know what I am doing anymore

Needing, feeling that I need to run and catch up
To a world that runs past itself everyday
I'm no self starter. I'm no leader
But I cannot afford to be a dreamer....