Do you ever think..

I was just thinking about that last night. How my social life is non-existent. I am going to a get-to-gether in March. I haven't been to it in one year! One whole year! Working nights means I function on a life opposite to others! So I must try harder to get out and around people. I want to date! And with my jeep getting smashed up. And all the rigamarole with that. How many others live pay cheque to pay cheque? I cannot save a cent. Seriously. Can you take a break daily? Do the things that make your heart race? I have hobbies and I do hike and write, etc. Soon Spring. Then I get outdoors a lot more. Make a list. Do those things. It will feel better. Seriously.

Funnily enough, I came home early from work today feeling unwell, and I hated doing it. Maybe guilt as I do love my job, but even so I don't have much of a social life. I hardly ever go out after work for an evening, and I spend the weekends with my sister and mum shopping, or going for dinner at my parents on Sundays. Yes, money is all for bills and the necessities, it is all we seem to work for.

I’m lucky enough to have some seasonal time off to decompress and regroup, but I’m about to be back in the thick of it. Very long, stressful hours with only one day off a week. And by the end of my shift, there isn’t a muscle that doesn’t ache. I’m not looking forward to it, especially when the paycheck is basically enough to cover groceries and maybe one small bill. But at the same time I’m extremely thankful to even have this job, even if it seems like I work so hard to not even be in a position to put anything back for savings. Sitting with the reality of that cycle can eat your soul alive though. You absolutely have to make the time and the energy to not be the person who is barely making it work. It’s just so incredibly hard to do sometimes.

No. I always made time for family and outside activities away from work. There were some extremely busy times, such as when we were writing proposals, and I had to work longer hours. Fortunately, I was in a position that allowed me some freedom to set my own schedule.

Yeah, either you have plenty of time but not excess of money to spend or you have money but no time to spend them. Or if you have both, it's hard to synchronize your free time with free time of other people.

There’s so much work going at online platforms. Have you ever tried it??
I mean less time consuming and more money.

Capitalism

Work totally gets in the way of life. But then, the billions of us who need to work to live are stuck in that cycle. We're allowed to make enough to make it to next week, but that's it.

Dreams don’t pay the bills.

the last time I felt like that I had 2 jobs