They found my timesheet

But I didn't like how they try to gaslight me. Say that I called off one day. That was December 31st. And then they said they took me off the schedule. Yes. I worked two days. The day before Thursday I was given my check. So that proves I should get something. And they have the nerve to ask. ARE YOU SUREEEEEEE..... Um yes? lol 🤣 da faq. I am currently looking for a new job which no one has gotten back to me ugh. Because they shortchange me on hours working once a week. I called the library. Left a msg. Called party city. No answer from the church. My depression has gotten worse. I'm trying to not to attack myself. It's still wounded. My bf hasn't been around much. He refuses to live or be around here because of my cousin who lives with me. My cousin finally works today. And he has been on my phone calling up places like crazy. Me thinking where is all this energy coming from. Then he says yea. If I can find a job I don't have to go to the warehouse today. I'm like. No. You are going regardless. You can't cheat your way out of this one. But I also feel like a mother. I worry for his safety. Because yes. I did tell him he can quit anytime. If he finds a stable job. But time is running out. If this was the beginning of the month. Yeah sure. But unfortunately I have to put my foot down rn. I broke down last night. Really broke down. I have never felt this way in a long time. It's gotten so bad my significant other rushed over because he sensed something was wrong. I wanted to do something more than hurt myself. I'm glad he watched over me tho. I was really considering on it. The thoughts haven't gone away. He knows I have nothing in my name. I made it clear how he has been avoiding me too that I cried over tampons. Anytime I ask for anything there was always an issue and I can't handle it anymore so I stopped. Then he turns around and says you could've just asked me. And I explained how I'm pretty much like a homeless peasant and he's the one who has all power over me. Anything saved goes straight to responsibilities. You know how MUCH I HAVE. 23 cents. Literally. And now I can't make ends meet at the end of this month. I have to wait to be mailed my check. But the way how I have been feeling. Dead to my core. I felt hopeless. When I woke up he said. I'm leaving you 20 dollars for anything you need. I broke down crying. And asked me why. I said you never done that before in our whole relationship. He hugged me but me staring at it. I know I can't spend it. So it's just going to sit there because it's emergency only.