I am disabled

And it affects my life a lot. I have mental health disabilities of depression, schizophrenia, ptsd, and anxiety. I need to learn to cope with these challenges so I can live a functional, independent life as much as I can. I also have very strong anti authoritarian tendencies on top of my disabilities. That does not make me suitable for a traditional workplace where there are rigid rules and schedules. I also don’t like people telling me how to live my personal life especially how I should dress as my folks think I dress too warmly and bundled up most of the year. I don’t thrive in an environment with dress codes or uniforms. I’m of the mindset as long as I do work according to client or agency specifications and create a great correctly done product and have it done by the due date, then the where, how, and when I do it shouldn’t matter. Some industries I can do that are translation/ transcription, writing/ blogging, proofreading and editing, digital marketing, visual design and web development, etc. also I can’t do an on site job as I don’t have reliable transportation ie driving a car. I need a doctors signature to access the bus on demand services and other paratransit services. My parents don’t. Let me drive anymore so commuting is out of the question. We don’t have constant busses, trains, trans, trolleys, and streetcars here. Also it’s not like I can just walk to work in a short distance. Even when I had a car my parents said I couldn’t give people rides for uber or Lyft as it was very dangerous for a young woman by herself at the late hours of the day. If I could still drive, I could be a courier or deliver food and groceries via companies like Uber Eats, grub hub, or instacart as a side gig. I could still pet sit and dog walk even though I never got more than one or two clients at a time. Truthfully, I should have just finished my university education and vocational courses online to have a stable career job whether that was self employed freelancer/independent contractor or as an employee with flexible schedule and remote work job. One of my parents dreams for me in the past was to have a full time professional career where I had full employment benefits like healthcare, disability leave, 401k, etc. well I’m not cut out for full time work though. I can do part time work maybe 20 hours a week without getting burned out. For me 15-30 hours a week no more than that would be ideal so I wouldn’t burn out too quickly. My parents will settle now for me working part time with my disability benefits intact as a safety net. They have had to lower their hopes for me because of my personal problems. I hope to go back to college and finish my degrees. Also finish courses with certificates of completion and diplomas so I can get a decent paying job. I’m not cut out for hard labor or anything customer service, sales, retail, or food industry or hospitality industry as I have no patience for dealing with people and their bullshit and I get easily flustered. Not to mention demanding customers or people would make me very angry and I would not keep a subservient attitude. I would tell them off and later cry in a private area. I’m not cut out for working with people directly. I also hated home health care homemaker job but I liked being a companion for an old lady. I don’t want to answer telephones all day or have to ask permission to take breaks. I like work that flexes with my lifestyle and I don’t have to clock in and out. If I need to eat or go grocery shopping for instance l can take a break and come back to my work later. I want a work life balance where I have two to three days off each week so I can work on my hobbies/interests/talents/passions/skillsets/aptitudes and run my life. I do best in bursts of 3-4 hours with a break. If I do 5-6 hours on a project I will need to use the bathroom and eat a meal to focus on my work. I also need time to exercise and run errands, pay bills, do household chores and maintenance, etc. that’s really hard on a full time schedule. When people work 40+ hours or even 50, 60 hour weeks that’s excessive. I know I will have to scale back my lifestyle but I don’t want to have to work like a dog just to make ends meet. And I get tired out easily. For me part time mentally stimulating but not physically demanding work is the key. Also I crave autonomy, freedom, independence, flexibility, variety, creativity and intellectual stimulation in my work. I am needing the education and training for skilled professional roles. I’m no good at unskilled jobs. Also I need jobs where my skills are what’s. Important and I can prove my proficiency. Via projects or a portfolio. That will be my experience. Because I haven’t Worked in years and my resume is lacking. It would also be great if I could just pass an assessment or two and not need to be interviewed then leading to a job even it’s completed with a work trial period. I’m not cut out for fast paced jobs where things are constantly going all over the place and constantly changing directions. I like to learn a variety of subjects. Also I am an introvert who does best in a calm steady environment. I have a lot of requirements for a good career match. Also if I had reliable transportation doing research for my career while I travel on a flexible schedule would have been great, too.