It’s been a bit since I’ve officially worked

Now I have a project that I said I’d try to have done by the end of today. I was trying to earn that couple hundred offered. It’s the most I’ve so far ever been paid for one job. I think I was thinking I’d earn a good review, but the job (formatting a book of poems and getting it ready to publish) wasn’t from Upwork; it was offered in person. I’m nervous I’ll mess up. It probably really will take me all day just because I’ll be obsessing over details, trying to get everything right.

It’s not actually requested to be done today. Maybe I need deadlines to do a thing well. If I’m not under pressure, maybe I can’t get it done. Or maybe I’m sabotaging myself.