I feel so completely alone.

Not because I'm actually alone, not because I'm alone around others, because my experiences and feelings are so separate from everyone else's.

Which to me is just how it is, but others find something wrong with me because I can't live and believe in life how they do.

I don't have parents. I haven't in years. I was in my early 30's when I lost them. I don't have help. I used to cry about it, it hurt, and people hated me for it.

So I got stronger and stopped trying to be happy because I have to be a working single mom. I have to get through by sacrificing a great deal. I've almost completely lost my own identity so I can be a mom, work two jobs and run my home. And all anyone can think to do now is hate me for that too.

It used to be I was dumb for having feelings, then I was wrong for having needs, now I'm dumb for trying to do it all without complaining.

I give up with people.

I give up trying to communicate. I give up trying to be real. I give up trying to express myself. Nobody cares.

There is a lens of privilege that a lot of people have. Instead of hearing another perspective and feeling empathy, they get offended and state what is true for them.

I give up.

Not on myself, or my son or life.

I give up trying to be closer to people. Nobody wants us. They never did, they never will.

It's time to officially retire from society. Nobody cares anymore.