Another interesting day...

of intermittent fasting..I was writing about my past yesterday and then again this morning, and this caused my Chronic PTSD to flare. My anxiety went through the roof, but after a couple of hours I got grounded again. I have since deleted all these stories, and I don't think I will be posting about my past anymore. It is easier for me to just stay focused on the present and future. Because of this, though, I thought I will just go ahead and start my eating window a couple of hours early.

That was a mistake...I had homemade chili, chips, and cheese, and I have had a belly ache since. Since I have been doing intermittent fasting, every time I eat what used to be a normal meal to me, I fight indigestion big time. I don't even really want to eat anything but fruit and vegetables.

It is interesting to me that I still want to eat to fix my emotions. People say it is because food is a comfort to some. Maybe it is at first, but after I reach a certain point, it turns into self-punishment for me. I tell myself I deserve to eat so much that I am sick, and ugly, and tired. There is more negative self-talk, and it can get really dark sometimes.. Usually, I am emotionally eating because I think I failed in some way.

Anyway, I am closing my eating window early today because....

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