I got on the scale today and I'm the lowest I've been since I was 13.

I've lost a total of 59kg/130lbs during the past 5 years. I'm 48% lighter than I was at my highest weight. I'm 2kg/4.4lbs away from a goal the dietician I went to see 5 years ago set for me. Given the excess skin I have and how my breasts have lost mass I don't want to lose anymore weight. I've been maintaining my weightloss over the years by stepping on the scale a minimum of 3 times a week. I refuse to slip into delusion again. Weight gain can't creep up on me if I stay monitoring myself. It helps me stay accountable. When I gain weight I can see it and gain control over it before spirals out of control. I've struggled with my weight all my life but I finally have a handle on it. I've been fat for far longer than I've been "normal". I have to fight to maintain the weight-loss because I'm genetically predisposed to obesity, it is abundant in my family.

Wanna know my favourite part of the weight-loss? I can do a cartwheel 🤸🏿‍♀😁. At my highest I struggled to tie my own shoelaces and now I can do a fricken cartwheel. It's the little things like that which are the best.

I can't express how good it feels to not stick out, to not be looked at for being fat. The world is not kind to fat people. I don't miss being morbidly obese at all.