Playing with friends started to become a chore.

I talked before about playing with my friend in Valorant and how it became so unfun when we started playing ranked. We started in unrated and were just enjoying it, then he said he’d boost me and that's when the stress came. Every mistake is noticed. You can always feel the pressure to play good instead of just goofing around, and you can feel the disappointment when you fail to clutch a round, dead silence, deep sighs, and stuff.

Now it’s worse. We started playing with his other friends, and now there's four of them sighing and being disappointed, back-seating and stuff. Now it’s 4x not fun and stressful. It’s come to the point that when aiming, my hands are shaking because of the anxiety of not killing someone. Every movement is judged to the point that I even stress about where to go.

I tried playing alone in unrated and the difference is noticeable. There, it’s fun even when losing.