How many sorrows

@ForNever: pity party has gotten a lot of bad press. What's so wrong with being sad or fucked up and wanting to be salved??

@Cavedweller: Nothing wrong with it at all. But people dont like to be weak, helpless, needy. We rather prefer to be cool.

@Cavedweller: It's easy getting caught up in showing the damaged side of oneself. It can become a habit- Then, one is known for having a sad ambiance to be around - I was brought up to hide things (as not to get judged) - After so long it becomes easy and I... I will not lie- I have been told plenty of times I am to honest *this is a flaw to those who know me- that is why I try my best to be a closed book and only let out that 13.01% when I am extremely upset and need guidance or outside voice on the situation as not to feel like I am going mad.

@Dreammmer: It's not for the sake of being cool- but for the personal sense of being forgotten- I have suffered in the past by being open about certain situations and - all I said was somehow used against me- so in this sense silence is a strength that can weaken but...overall strength from within

@ForNever: Yes, that makes sense. There are different reasons why people remain silent. But I would prefer to say that silence is a protection, not a strength in itself. You are not stronger when you keep your sorrows and fears and whatever else inside you. I hope you find true friends who will not turn that against you what you share. Im sorry that you had to make that experience.

@ForNever: This might be helpful to read:
https://similarworlds.com/3762308-I-Study-the-Bible/787242-I-dedicate-this-bible-study-to-Kati-The-need-to