Who in your life was playing the victim with a villainous edge?

How much of your career ambition is fueled by a desire to prove your worth to people who rejected you in the past?
Why is it said that a narcissist aims at nothing and uses life to create death? What does that mean in practical terms?
How do I stop being so naive, credulous, gullible, trustful, unsuspious, such a sucker, fleecable, unwary, and dewy? I'm 35.