Can a woman who's been through narcissistic abuse multiple times ever truly trust again, or does the pattern change who you are permanently?

What is a significant non-verbal communication difference you've noticed while speaking your various languages?
How do you actually know you're growing as a person? I’ve been thinking about this lately and realized that most of my personal growth is self-assessed. For people who are intentional about self-improvement, do you ever seek feedback from others?