When did you realize you were attractive or unattractive?
When did you first realize that life is short? My freshman year of high school one of my best friends and basketball teammates would give me a ride home everyday after practice. He (being a senior) was commenting on how quickly high school went by, and I remember saying "Highschool is going to last forever, I can't believe I have so much time left!"
Life is what you make it. Most people say life is short because they never actually live in the moment, and then before they know it, their constricted little bubble of fear has lead them to lead a life of constant worry and past dread.
Friends and family kept dying young. We lost two friends to lung cancer (52 and 54). Two of my friend's dads had massive heart attacks and died(in their 40s). My cousin died earlier this year in his 30s leaving behind a wife and 2 young daughters (brain aneurysm). Then a month later my aunt (63) died of a cold after she had finally gotten her liver transplant.
When a kid I sort of knew died. He was 19. I was just about to turn 20 at the time. He died, and I realized that I've already lived longer than he ever had a chance to. His whole life began and ended faster than mine right now.
When I suddenly realized I'm 41 and my life is in a great shape for a 28-year-old, since that's what I still am in my mind. Not sure how I can catch up to where I'm supposed (or I want) to be.
I feel like this is a constant realization. I find that every time I've reached a new benchmark (halfway through college, sister's wedding, etc), I can't help but marvel at how the time moves.
Once I deconverted from the religion I was raised in. Before then, it was nothing to worry about because this life may end but there is another, better life just beyond Death's Doorway.
Once I began to understand how old our planet and the universe are, it all clicked. Not only is life incredibly short, the amount of time that our species will exist is an inconsequential blip on the map of time. Now, after leaving that all behind I realize how very precious life and consciousness is. Knowing that this is all you have makes you exceedingly grateful for the short time we have in the Universe.
Life is what you make it. Most people say life is short because they never actually live in the moment, and then before they know it, their constricted little bubble of fear has lead them to lead a life of constant worry and past dread.
Friends and family kept dying young. We lost two friends to lung cancer (52 and 54). Two of my friend's dads had massive heart attacks and died(in their 40s). My cousin died earlier this year in his 30s leaving behind a wife and 2 young daughters (brain aneurysm). Then a month later my aunt (63) died of a cold after she had finally gotten her liver transplant.
When a kid I sort of knew died. He was 19. I was just about to turn 20 at the time. He died, and I realized that I've already lived longer than he ever had a chance to. His whole life began and ended faster than mine right now.
When I suddenly realized I'm 41 and my life is in a great shape for a 28-year-old, since that's what I still am in my mind. Not sure how I can catch up to where I'm supposed (or I want) to be.
I feel like this is a constant realization. I find that every time I've reached a new benchmark (halfway through college, sister's wedding, etc), I can't help but marvel at how the time moves.
Once I deconverted from the religion I was raised in. Before then, it was nothing to worry about because this life may end but there is another, better life just beyond Death's Doorway.
Once I began to understand how old our planet and the universe are, it all clicked. Not only is life incredibly short, the amount of time that our species will exist is an inconsequential blip on the map of time. Now, after leaving that all behind I realize how very precious life and consciousness is. Knowing that this is all you have makes you exceedingly grateful for the short time we have in the Universe.
