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@pentacorn I don't have a step-daughter, I made it very clear to her and to her dad that I didn't want to come between them in any way. She already had a father and a dad and certainly didn't need or want me being involved in that way. My wife would be fine without me, so yes I am pretty much useless. My wife is sitting in a hotel right now and visiting her mother in the hospital every day watching her die, alone! Because my job doesn't allow me to be there to support her emotionally. I am sitting here on the phone right now listening to my wife cry and I can't be there to hold her...I'm useless.

@istillhaveanameitsrick you're on the phone with her. that's useful. i'm sorry you're depressed. if it's her who has the daughter, then she's your stepdaughter.

@pentacorn legally yes, but not in any other way

@istillhaveanameitsrick i accept that. it's more than her father has now. be grateful. i know it's hard.

@pentacorn my wife's daughter sees me as a friend of the family and an occasional drinking buddy (we both like Jagerbombs) I'm pretty sure if she thought of me as a father figure of any kind she likely would not have removed her top while we were all tubing on the river last summer LOL

@istillhaveanameitsrick okay, then, lol

@pentacorn and if I thought of her as a daughter i certainly wouldn't have enjoyed seeing it (which i beat myself up for often)

@istillhaveanameitsrick i'm... out of words now, i think 😕