ever took a decision that you thought would make you happy but may have been a bad idea ?

Today i took the radical decision of completely and suddenly vanishing from a video game community i've been a part of for several years, the reason being that i've developped a very toxic and unhealthy mindset regarding those games, and i'm certain i'm unable to change, so this felt like the only solution.

I went as far as completely wiping out all the aforementioned games and all my files and save data and wiping out my Discord account to keep away all chances of me getting sucked back in, i figured with those games out of my life i'd finally be happy and free from the drug-like grip those games had on me.

When i had just finished deleting everything it felt like freedom, but now it's been a couple hours, and i'm just sitting there feeling bad for all the friends i just went and left behind and the big void i now have to fill.

I'm trying to convince myself they'll just forget about me in a few weeks, that i can't go back now after doing this, that if i do come back people will just laugh at me for being a cringe attention-seeking loser, and i know if i do come back i'll just be back to square one of being addicted to those games and being miserable the whole way through.

But at the same time, i just deleted a huge part of my life and burned bridges with people i liked, so it feels like i'm stuck between a rock and a hard place.

I hope that it'll get better after a week and i can move on, hopefully to never return, but the next few days might be a bit rough...

I'm not sure what to do now, or how things are gonna go to be honest, i just feel like shit rn and doubting myself...