Feeling Out of It and Drunk
I sleep too much or too little. It can be days, or months of a zombie state where days blur together. Time is nonexistent. Asleep so many days my body feels heavy and melting into the bed. Other days, I can't sleep no matter what. I can drink down a few shots of tequila, try to wash away the exhaustion with alcohol, but the mind does not quiet. I awake with a rush, like my mind is a fish out of water and it's drowning. Blurring with a lack of reality. Spending too many days in and out of consciousness, and I wish it was as simple as a drug. At least then there would be a solution. Instead, I just feel kinda empty and sick.