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rckt148 · 61-69, M
My sons Mom was like a roommate for years after our son was born
and she is the one who begged me to lets have him ,my youngest daughter was 25 at the time .
I never wanted to have another child or a broken home and visitation
I did meet someone else and she understood the arrangement ,
But I have a disease eating my spine so I take narcotics for pain
my sons Mom was an addict ,so she stole my pain meds leaving me to suffer many days of the month ,
So when she could no longer stand to see me suffer like that she said enough was enough ,either I put my foot down and make her leave ,and take her to court and make sure I got my son ,or she was leaving me
I let her go
Now 8 yrs later ,she is in that boat ,but her man's drug of choice is Playstation ,now she is unhappy and tired of it
And she wants me back
Now I am the one with my head spinning ..I love her ,I have prayed all this time she would come home
Now she wants to ,and I don't know if I can trust her
If she could leave me knowing how much I loved her and it would kill me
and now she wants to date me ,make plans to leave this guy
Who is to say if my health gets worse ,which I know it will
How do I know she won't destroy me again ?
I don't want to spend another 8 yrs ,and still not be over her
On my side ,nothing is in my way ,,my Kids say I have their full support
They just pray they never have to see me ever hurt like that again
and I am not even the same man she left ,she destroyed him
But I think any woman would be happy with this model ,,except the bad back
She was extremely happy with me and wanted to get married
I was just worried about what my son might go though ,but she has been good to him and we share him
So as far as a person ,my girl would get a much better man then the one she loved ,what might I end up with ,,maybe even pay for the sins or the guy she is with ,he has not been good to her
I hate feeling like this ,,normally I am always in control of my thoughts
Not lately ,,she is
and she is the one who begged me to lets have him ,my youngest daughter was 25 at the time .
I never wanted to have another child or a broken home and visitation
I did meet someone else and she understood the arrangement ,
But I have a disease eating my spine so I take narcotics for pain
my sons Mom was an addict ,so she stole my pain meds leaving me to suffer many days of the month ,
So when she could no longer stand to see me suffer like that she said enough was enough ,either I put my foot down and make her leave ,and take her to court and make sure I got my son ,or she was leaving me
I let her go
Now 8 yrs later ,she is in that boat ,but her man's drug of choice is Playstation ,now she is unhappy and tired of it
And she wants me back
Now I am the one with my head spinning ..I love her ,I have prayed all this time she would come home
Now she wants to ,and I don't know if I can trust her
If she could leave me knowing how much I loved her and it would kill me
and now she wants to date me ,make plans to leave this guy
Who is to say if my health gets worse ,which I know it will
How do I know she won't destroy me again ?
I don't want to spend another 8 yrs ,and still not be over her
On my side ,nothing is in my way ,,my Kids say I have their full support
They just pray they never have to see me ever hurt like that again
and I am not even the same man she left ,she destroyed him
But I think any woman would be happy with this model ,,except the bad back
She was extremely happy with me and wanted to get married
I was just worried about what my son might go though ,but she has been good to him and we share him
So as far as a person ,my girl would get a much better man then the one she loved ,what might I end up with ,,maybe even pay for the sins or the guy she is with ,he has not been good to her
I hate feeling like this ,,normally I am always in control of my thoughts
Not lately ,,she is
MartinTheFirst · 26-30, M
@rckt148 obviously you cant trust her. Dont be foolish mate you know she broke it. Youre just.. horny probably.
rckt148 · 61-69, M
@MartinTheFirst Martin ,I have been alone ,my choice the last 8 yrs
I have lots of lady friends who have asked me to marry them
If I was only horny ,I have lots or ladies that would be happy to scratch that itch
I actually still love her ,I haven't wanted anyone else
Thats what I tell all the ladies that care about me
"until I am over her ,it would not be fair to anyone to want to be with me "
they would still be living with her ghost
I have not wanted anyone for 10 yrs ,except her
I have lots of lady friends who have asked me to marry them
If I was only horny ,I have lots or ladies that would be happy to scratch that itch
I actually still love her ,I haven't wanted anyone else
Thats what I tell all the ladies that care about me
"until I am over her ,it would not be fair to anyone to want to be with me "
they would still be living with her ghost
I have not wanted anyone for 10 yrs ,except her
MartinTheFirst · 26-30, M
@rckt148 idk man sounds like youre horny. 8 years is enough for most to lose interest in someone's personality.
rckt148 · 61-69, M
@MartinTheFirst PS ,but thanks for the advice my friend ,I am grateful
rckt148 · 61-69, M
@MartinTheFirst My friend ,,I am an older man
we are not like you young men ,and I was a rock star ,,I had so many women in the day ,I thought they would kill me ,
but when you get older (at least for me ,you have other things on you're mind besides sex ,,I am not horny ,if I was ,I know plenty or women that would be happy to deal with that for me ,even just for the sex
My next mate will be my wife ,and I hope its till I die
I am not horny
we are not like you young men ,and I was a rock star ,,I had so many women in the day ,I thought they would kill me ,
but when you get older (at least for me ,you have other things on you're mind besides sex ,,I am not horny ,if I was ,I know plenty or women that would be happy to deal with that for me ,even just for the sex
My next mate will be my wife ,and I hope its till I die
I am not horny