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Have you ever felt that you're emotionally numb?

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4meAndyou · F
After I tried to reconcile with the ex and moved back into our house with him, the IRS made a mistake on my income taxes from 2007. They said I owed them 10K. During this period I tried desperately to sell my house in Michigan, just in case I could not resolve the error in time. The IRS will charge you penalties if you don't pay them immediately. It was agonizing. My house had a buyer, and all my money was tied up in the house.

During that period, I had to find an apartment, pack, move, and find a job. I had to get the idiots at the Verizon employee office to try to comprehend that I needed to find the records from my IRA. It was probably the most horrible time in my life.

I did sell my house on time, just in case, and I got all the documents in to the IRS JUST under the wire.

I remember it was three months after the deadline when the IRS finally, finally sent me a letter. They didn't come out and admit they made a mistake, either. I remember sitting in the car trying to understand what I was reading and I, who can understand most English, could not understand the convoluted letter I was reading.

I said to myself, "I'm not going to cry here." I was sitting in my car in front of the post office. I felt like I needed to cry and never stop.

So I went home, planning to have a complete breakdown, and when I got there I sat at my desk and I couldn't cry. I was frozen inside...like I was in shock. I was numb to the core. I could not feel anything, and I could not cry.
Beatbox34 · 31-35, M
@4meAndyou I know how you feel.

I'm really sorry that you had to deal with all that. Thank you for sharing that.

The funniest part is when you get numb, you actually feel nothing. It's like you're completely blank and wiped out.
4meAndyou · F
@Beatbox34 I felt that way for a long time. I was worried about myself. I tried to date and I hated everyone I met. I began to think there was something wrong with me. I thought I was incapable of feeling love. It finally broke, like an ice dam.
Beatbox34 · 31-35, M
@4meAndyou I guess I'm at the stage where you're at.

I was dumped last year, I got evicted and I had to deal with a lot of emotional trauma at home. I used to feel weak both emotionally and physically at that time.

I felt incapacitated now and numb overall. Like you, I hate talking to people and I lash out pretty easily. A small spark is enough to set me on fire.

I feel no remorse anymore because I don't think people will ever be able to understand me or do the same as I did for others.
4meAndyou · F
@Beatbox34 It's a slow process, coming back from the shock that causes the numbness. Give it time.