How should i find worthy social connections for my depressed self?

I'm actually depressed and i have no one to talk to. I have tried to make connections but none works which makes me more frustrated. In the past several months i gave up the close people i trusted with my emotions because it reached a point i was no longer important to them. They were making excuses so i adjusted. We still talk on phone till now but its mostly basic talk or when they have 'an issue' they want to talk with me about. Back to my depression/anxiety concerns. I tried a "feel good cannabis smoke' to cover my bad evenings when im alone but the following day i crash down so hard emotionally that i cannot get out of bed but feel like crying. So i really try to avoid that.
Problem is not that i cannot interact with people. I just do not connect well with their vibe. I either feel the interaction is petty hence i cannot spend a lot of time in such groups or they do not see the explicit meaning in things i say. I dont have a partner but i try to make connections but they seem to slip off my hands just when im getting excited for myself. I dont blame anyone neither do i have hate towards them for doing so. My problem is i get so angry at myself that my depression chokes me. I dont know how to proceed because sometimes i feel like the conflict in me is too strong to handle. my neighbors know im a peaceful and nice person but part of me is telling me they're wondering how comes im always alone. That does not bother me anyway but i just wish to resolve this part of me.