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@ShadowOfMyself sorry to hear...professional help asap...best!

@Wiseacre i would if i could afford it

@ShadowOfMyself how about a support group for ppl who've experienced cult abuse...ask around..some things are free!

Where do you suggest i start looking? Here? @Wiseacre

@ShadowOfMyself no, it's complicated and requires experience..u'r not alone..many were in cults..ask ur local university if they have psychology ph.d.students working for free..or maybe find an online support group.

@Wiseacre I'm sure getting some form of psychiatric help would do me good. I doubt I'm undamaged. All the shit i have been through, i wouldn't be human if i was undamaged by all of that

@ShadowOfMyself o, totally..u need reprogramming ur brain..the damage is severe..

The programming they tried kind of backfired. I rebelled instead of following the pack. I developed a hate for God and everyone else around me. Instead of wanting to do what they wanted me to do, i wanted everyone dead. I was going to kill everyone. One by one. In different ways. Ive thought and planned it for years. But i have gotten away. So far away that it would be a major inconvenience to carry out my fantasies. I shake from excitement thinking about it. They wanted to turn me into a mindless sheep that would follow the Shepard without question. Instead, i turned into a rabid, bloodthirsty wolf. @Wiseacre

@ShadowOfMyself o, I believe it..there is hope..u're young..get some help..best!

@ShadowOfMyself u may want to read The Cult Experience