I got into a fight with my girlfriend last night while my

sister was visiting our apartment. My sister intervened and tried to calm things down but I still flipped. We were arguing because she brought up a girl that she used to really, really like. The girl is an exotic dancer. She got upset because I called her a stripper. She stopped me and corrected me. My anxiety got the best of me and I got really upset. I told her I felt like she was protecting that girls feelings over mine. I don't know why it bothers me so much. My depression and anxiety has gotten so bad over the past few weeks and I have no control over it. Last night I told her that I couldn't be with someone who I felt like doesn't care about my feelings. I broke up with her while I was drunk. FOR THE 3RD TIME THIS WEEK. This morning she told me she doesn't think we should get back together. I understand I wouldn't want to be with someone like me either. I am BROKEN. I've been through a lot like being sexually abused my whole childhood, having a very abusive mother, and trying to learn to cope with my PMDD anxiety and depression. It's a lot to put on someone. So, I get it. I'm still sad though. She left our apartment this morning to run some errands. She asked me help find a roommate to split the place with her. I said I would. I took a few things in a bag and I left. I just wish I didn't have this bad depression and anxiety beating me down.