Feeling really unhappy

I hate talking about my self in public but yesterday at sliming the was an award for man of the year and as there was only 2 men we was both asked to talk about our journey and how we felt.
I tried my best and gave a talk to 40 people about me as i struggle to talk in front of people i hated it but did it then the otger guy gavee his talk and the group had to vote on paper slips and i witnessed the friends of the other man all putting in lots of votes and so he won after i mentioned it to the woman running the group she said well its too late now . This has left me feeling really shit about myself because i put my heart on show for people to see