I Was Molested By My Babysitter

When I was 8 years-old, I had a babysitter who was a 16-17 year-old girl who molested me for more than a year. My mom was working two jobs during that time so she wasn't always around and never had any idea what that teenager she paid to look after me was doing. I never spoke up about it because it was all so overwhelming and confusing for me. When she would molest me, I always somehow knew it was wrong and that she could get in trouble if she got caught. But I didn't want to get her into trouble because in spite of everything she did, the babysitter and I were close. She was always real nice to me and I saw her as a big sister. Even though I knew what she was doing couldn't have been okay, I could never bring myself to tell anyone and get her in trouble. So I never did during that whole time and my mother was none the wiser. The molestation finally ended when the babysitter had to move away with her family. I didn't speak up about it until I was 13 but by that time, we had no idea where that girl and her family went to so unfortunately, she got away with what she did. But over time I learned to give her the benefit of the doubt. Perhaps she's matured and now regrets what she did. I don't know if I forgive her considering everything she did and how many times did it but I know I will never forget.