I Was Molested By My Babysitter

When I was 8 years-old, I had a babysitter who was a 16-17 year-old girl who molested me for more than a year. My mom was working two jobs during that time so she wasn't always around and never had any idea what that teenager she paid to look after me was doing. I never spoke up about it at the time because it was all so overwhelming and confusing for me. When she would molest me, I always somehow knew it was wrong and that she could get in trouble if she got caught but I didn't want to get her into trouble because in spite of everything she did, the babysitter and I were close. She was always real nice to me and I saw her as a big sister. Even though I knew what she was doing couldn't have been okay, I could never bring myself to tell anyone and get her in trouble. So I never did during that whole time and my mother was none the wiser. The molestation finally ended when the babysitter had to move away with her family. I didn't speak up about it until I was 13 but by that time, we had no idea where that girl and her family went to so unfortunately, she got away with what she did. I wish I had spoken up about it sooner so she would have been caught because for all I know, she's still out there molesting other children! But over time I've learned to give her the benefit of the doubt. Perhaps she's matured and now regrets what she did. I don't know if I can ever forgive her considering everything she did and how many times she did it, how long she kept on doing it for, but I know I will never forget. Should I ever come face to face with her again, I don't know what I would say but I know I won't let her forget either.