Vulnerable post ive never shared with anyone. potential trigger warning for child molestation.
I just want to see what other peoples thoughts are on these childhood memories and please do not private me with some kink stuff. I dont want this to get sexual posts about this.
So I have no memory of my father ever doing anything sexual to me but I have a few weird memories that ive never shared with anyone and just want someone else's input. I remember once when I was around 6 or so getting undressed infront of my father and he was like just staring at my privates and I noticed it was to a point that it was weird and I remember that being the last time i undressed infront of him. There was another time we were at the beach and he made a comment about "Oh im just looking at the pretty girls" I said dad...they look like theyre like 13! he said oh yea youre probably right and i just kind of ignored it after that. I also remember when I was like probably 12 or 13 and we were in a camper he would cuddle with me like too much when I was trying to sleep you know. Then when i was 16 my brother dad and I were talking about going on a camping trip and we were talking about sleeping arrangements. My dad said Oh, I can sleep with her because I might not realize shes me daughter and try something. I said dad eww shutup. I wouldnt have even wanted to sleep in the same bed with him anyway. Once when I was like 17 I woke up to him like petting my head and i woke up screaming at him to get out of the room. These are all very inappropriate but he never did anything like actually touch my privates or molest me. However, I have noticed that there are a few behaviors women have when they grow up being molested that i can relate to.
Idk I dont talk about this because its embarrassing and in real life I can be a bit of a perfectionist but I just want to know what others thoughts on this are... Is this something im making a bigger deal in my head?
So I have no memory of my father ever doing anything sexual to me but I have a few weird memories that ive never shared with anyone and just want someone else's input. I remember once when I was around 6 or so getting undressed infront of my father and he was like just staring at my privates and I noticed it was to a point that it was weird and I remember that being the last time i undressed infront of him. There was another time we were at the beach and he made a comment about "Oh im just looking at the pretty girls" I said dad...they look like theyre like 13! he said oh yea youre probably right and i just kind of ignored it after that. I also remember when I was like probably 12 or 13 and we were in a camper he would cuddle with me like too much when I was trying to sleep you know. Then when i was 16 my brother dad and I were talking about going on a camping trip and we were talking about sleeping arrangements. My dad said Oh, I can sleep with her because I might not realize shes me daughter and try something. I said dad eww shutup. I wouldnt have even wanted to sleep in the same bed with him anyway. Once when I was like 17 I woke up to him like petting my head and i woke up screaming at him to get out of the room. These are all very inappropriate but he never did anything like actually touch my privates or molest me. However, I have noticed that there are a few behaviors women have when they grow up being molested that i can relate to.
Idk I dont talk about this because its embarrassing and in real life I can be a bit of a perfectionist but I just want to know what others thoughts on this are... Is this something im making a bigger deal in my head?
31-35, F
