Just laying here in the dirt with my head resting on a rock looking up into the sky thinking🤔When the fck do i hit rock bottom?

I spent the day cussing out my lungs again on my way to the library. I really don't know why i do it it's only going to hurt me more. I just don't know how people can so blantently fck with you and then the cops can throw you into a mental institutions because you don't like being followed. And i don't know how someone can mess with someone and not atleast admit to it so that they can go on living their lives instead of always thinking about people messing with him and not knowing when they'll do it again. All my shit has been stolen, my wallet, 2cellphones, and countless debit cards, and nobody seems to give a fck.

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nameless1 · 36-40

I dont know why you just cant let it go. Nobody is going to admit it and nobody is going to apologize and even if they did it wouldnt change the outcome. Diferent things happen to people all the time but by you obsessing about it constantly is only harming yourself. Nobody else.

Lostpoet · M

@nameless1 I just have that personality i can't stop stop my mind from bringing up memories and reliving them. That's why i'm someone you can't mess with.

nameless1 · 36-40

And you dont just develop tourettes. Tourettes usually starts in childhood and is accompanied by a tic. Uncontrollable blinking, jerking, shoulder shrugging, etc. It is a neurological disorder. So i don't know what is causing you to holler out obscenities. You need to see a therapist or someone if you cant help yourself.

Lostpoet · M

@nameless1 Well, I can't control it. I know what caused me to yell out obscenities have you ever had people messing with you and you're the one that has to deal with the consequences? It's my fault for quitting my jobs and running but it's fcking illegal to stalk someone and mess with them. I don't care if it was just a game to them it's fcked up my life and has caused me problems for years now. I don't need a therapist i just need these people to admit about fcking with me and to promise to stop and never do it again.

They were following me and then having someone record it on their phone. Do you know how stressful that is?

nameless1 · 36-40

@Lostpoet no but i know if they havent admitted and apologized by now they arent going to.

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LittleLonely · 46-50

You reach me with your title:

“Laying in the dirt resting my head on a rock looking up at the sky thinking about”

That and your mention of the library really made my cerebral juices flow.

Sorry about the other stuff that happened.

Thanks for sharing.

NinaTina · 31-35, F

I do and im sorry your going through this🤗

Lostpoet · M

@NinaTina I don't know if i developed turrets or i'm having post traumatic stress and i know it wasn't a big deal hindsight that people were following me, but it did cause enough stress to seriously cause me problems and i know i have to stop because there are kids and stuff, but i also don't know why nobody can just admit to messing with and i've had to live with this for years now.

Nihiless

People suck that's why, they dissappoint you and hurt you and just want to watch you suffer and there's nothing (legally) you can do about it, atleast by way of reparations. Accept it and see people for who they are.

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