I'm gonna cry. Like seriously. What is this.

What is all of this. I'm a mess. I can't. I wish my best friend needed me as much as I need him, emotionally. It just makes me feel rejected all the time. i really need my friend right now. I need a hug. I need to be told that it's okay. I need to be prioritized. I don't want to be kicked in the back of the line just because I ask my friend to spend time with me.