Feeling really low.

I don’t talk much about what happened to me but I just wanted to write out what I’m feeling In this current moment.

I feel really stressed and upset and I don’t know why. Im scared I’m going to cut deep and need stitches like I did on Thursday but I don’t want to do that as I want to get better but this trauma that happened is really causing me to lose my fight.

Self harm is a coping mechanism for me and I know it’s not healthy it’s my way of coping, I know this attack occurred years ago but I am still not fully healed from it, I am still to this day struggling to love myself, trying to look at men differently, when I say differently I mean that I shouldn’t be scared of them as of what happened.

I just needed to let out my feelings and it does help.

xx