Its traumatic when you've never experienced something like that before, I remember getting jumped by 4 men when I was 19 and they beat the shit out of me, knocked a couple of my teeth out at the time.

I developed anxiety for a good while after that and PTSD, id have physiological reactions to seeing groups of people at night.
When the parameters of safety are broken in your brain it goes hyper alert to compensate until you adjust.

I'd recommend you start hitting the gym, and join a martial arts gym. You'll find you can carry yourself fine after that, you'll always be more aware regardless but you'll feel confident then.

I can't tell you how sorry I am that this happened to you. Keep telling your story and it's excellent therapy to write down your story over and over and over if you have to. Writing is such therapeutic and helps us heal. So do tears. Get yourself your own journal and write your own biography. This will help you tremendously and yes, you will definitely get better. Don't try to rush it. Let it take its natural course and you will heal. ❤🌹🤗🤗🤗❤❤❤🙏🙏🙏 I'm so thankful you're coming along. You're so brave. God bless you.

So sorry to hear that, no one should have to ever go through that, but that's the world we live in now unfortunately. I also don't think that you are making this all about yourself. I've never had to experience this myself, but i do know it will take some time to get back to your normal self again

I got mugged once at night in London, it was horrible, I still think about it but it’s much better now.

That’s really scary!

you could and more than likely are suffering from ptsd due to the trauma, i'd see a professional.

Maybe get a gun.