I'm slowly watching things just fall away.

Today I missed my car payment...but it's not just that...idk how long this is going to last. Missed payments, credit hits, no job as of yet...I'm also missing my wife very much now, mostly because I know it will be a good while before I can see her again... Honestly, I'm trying to smile through the pain but sometimes I let the darker things get the best of me. Idk how bad it is gonna get before things get better, if they ever do. I just don't know.