A bit down

I find certain friendships really important and I have trusted many these past couple years at work. They mean more to me than just work and we have pretty good conversations. But.. i am trying to handle some stuff.. my older woman friend for some reason has excuses when i ask her to meet me out .. or today I gave her something special and I knew she like it but she wanted to keep it at work at her cubicle. She said she showed everyone on her team. The same day another woman in her late 60s told me she valued my friendship. I dont feel she does. I think the other lady rubbed it in her face ... I have been noticing some sketchy stuff and im not happy with it but not trying to fool myself. She is a chatty katty . I dont believe her that she values my friendship. I think she is lonely. I have ate lunch at work once with her but she never asked me again and i have offered to go to dinner sometime esp when she is alone during the week. But she doesnt eat alot and ok ...she is tiny. But could still get then dessert or chat .. i dont know.

She has asked someone recently about going to a drag show. She never asked me. I know because another woman asked me to go. Which i feel weird if i wasnt asked by the original person. If she thought she valued us why hasnt she asked me to go out .

And the other woman i am good friends with never meets me .. we work in same building and she complains she doesnt eat but going to go out with older folks outside of work. Really. Every time i ask she says she cant. I dont get it. We exchange holiday gifts and we are alot alike.

It worries me. I hope i didnt trust the wrong ppl again.

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