I Wonder What People Really See
As of a few days ago I learned my brother looks so far down on me that I'm less then an inch tall. He basically spit in my face during the apology he gave me back in November. He shrugged and laughed in my face while sitting on my couch. I gave myself a long while to digest the disrespect he gave to me.
A few days ago I reached out for the sake of our kids. He literally told me I'm worthless because I have health issues that make it difficult to function, and even leave my home. I cant work and have been in the middle of a disability battle for a few years now. Then after my brother talked in circles about how I was in the wrong to ignore him for a few weeks. His wife then felt the need to talk in the same circles while adding more insults and cut me down further.
No ones made me feel this terrible about my disability, and it came from people I thought I was close to. We spent several hours a week together and even more during the college football season. I learned it was a waste of my time spending those hours over the last 7 years.
I literally had 10 family members and now I'm down to 6 and my world keeps shrinking. I dont have any friends anymore. They all moved on when my health declined more then it already was.
I'm not going to lie.... I'm extremely hurt and yet I'm extremely proud of myself. I'm the only one who gets to decide how I feel and when I should be done feeling that way. And I'm not going to be disrespect by people that think they can push me around for their benefit.
A few days ago I reached out for the sake of our kids. He literally told me I'm worthless because I have health issues that make it difficult to function, and even leave my home. I cant work and have been in the middle of a disability battle for a few years now. Then after my brother talked in circles about how I was in the wrong to ignore him for a few weeks. His wife then felt the need to talk in the same circles while adding more insults and cut me down further.
No ones made me feel this terrible about my disability, and it came from people I thought I was close to. We spent several hours a week together and even more during the college football season. I learned it was a waste of my time spending those hours over the last 7 years.
I literally had 10 family members and now I'm down to 6 and my world keeps shrinking. I dont have any friends anymore. They all moved on when my health declined more then it already was.
I'm not going to lie.... I'm extremely hurt and yet I'm extremely proud of myself. I'm the only one who gets to decide how I feel and when I should be done feeling that way. And I'm not going to be disrespect by people that think they can push me around for their benefit.
36-40, F
