I Wonder What People Really See

When I look in the mirror I don't see anything I like. When I catch a glimpse of my reflection, I can't help but wonder what other people see. I wonder if they see what I do or whether there's more ugliness my eyes refuse to see. Sometimes I can see new ugly features from different angles and try and piece myself together in my minds eye. No wonder I am alone.

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elVato · 46-50, M

I've had body dysmorphic disorder since i was a kid.
Which is lame as I'm told I look good and when I'm really having problems I starve myself and run like a maniac.
TMI?
*shrugs*

PandorasBox · 31-35, F

@elVato Makes sense. Not TMI. We just have to try and cope I guess? I'm real good at locking emotions deep down... until they burst out... oops.

"I can't drown my demons, they know how to swim..."

elVato · 46-50, M

@PandorasBox At 44, I've learned to appreciate my demons.
*sigh*