what my future will be

how do i know that i’ll be a good person in the future. how do i know i won’t be so broken that i’ll end up alone and depressed for the rest of my life? i’m supposed to have a good childhood. and i did for the first half, but it somehow just fell apart. what am i going to do with myself? i feel like it’s the same every single day and i’m sick of it so how do i know it won’t repeat over and over until it drives me insane. i’m so sick and done with life.