I Hate Being Misunderstood

I was recently called a liar for expressing that I felt no one would care if I killed myself because I'm not actively suicidal. Feeling like no one cares is a sign of depression, not suicidal ideation. These two mental illesses are heavily researched and heavily pushed in places that everyone has been to frequently such as hospitals, pharmacies, schools of every level, and various clinics. Hell, I've seen the pamphlets in the damn grocery store! There are thousands of Google pages and blog articles on each of them separately. There's at least 4 different wiki-how articles on dealing with depression alone. I've been actively suicidal many times, and most of them were not accompanied by depression beyond what I normally feel on a regular basis. Most of my more extreme episodes of depression, suicide isn't even a thought. Why the ever living hell are so many people still holding the myth that depression and suicidal ideation are synonymous?! If I wanted to express feelings of suicidal ideation, I'd express them clearly that I'm actively suicidal. When I express feeling that no one cares if I live or die, I'm expressing my feelings of depression. Assuming that a depressed person is suicidal is like assuming that a paranoid schizophrenic is the same as a narcissistic psychopath! They are not and have different markers and can, and often do, present without the other. STOP ASSUMING THE DEPRESSED KID IS SUICIDAL!!!

Serenitree · F

I know. I have a daughter who believes no one would care. Except me, and I don't count because I am Mom and I have to care. She believes that everyone actually wants her dead, including strangers on the street, who look at her and she knows they are wishing she would die. Yet she has never expressed a wish to kill herself, just a desire to go somewhere and change her name and tell no one where she is. And no one actually sees the depression, except me. They see her as an angry person, and she often is. But that is how her depression affects her.