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Am I just too wild?

Not like "wilding out" doing dumb things or clubbing or drinking and drugs, or just no morals...just too wild in spirit. I never gave this much thought until I was stripped from everything and thrown away. I can't stand being a homebody, or staying in one place for too long, or "settling down" to raising a family, getting into politics and trying to compete with everything going on right now.I'm not happy trying to fit in the system or society norms or trying to be somebody in an unforgiving economy just to survive a world [b]we (as in man-made)[/b] created. I'm troubled by it because I can't fit in. Sure, one could adapt, not saying I never did or tried...but it's not the life I want. I'm happier having all that I own fit in a backpack and just having a space to be away from all these electronics and learning/living in a world around me in the outdoors. Because reality is, we don't "own" anything and the man made stuff isn't forever. It either gets passed on or is devalued or trashed, or even sized by someone or a governing body in the end of it. Reality doesn't care about that. For example, I love history and I can tell you that most of the land the town I live close to was owned by a German immigrant back in the mid 1800's like 1846 if I recall correctly. 342 acres or something like that. Personal property that was eventually taken piece by piece to develop a township after the caretakers were massacred by the Apache in the region. All that's left now is the old cabin on a hill from that time and everything else is overly developed. Even further, where I live and the surrounding area before it was settled by immigrants, was home to all the wildlife and Indian tribe(s) that lived there. Anyways, my viewpoint and understanding, and just who I am, I guess it makes me more of a "wild" person that others have trouble keeping up with you know?
I don't care if I am rich because I rather live humble. I don't care about if I have a highly reputable career because nobody's gonna care who I was or even know my name a few generations in the future. I don't care if I live alone because my lifestyle isn't about pride, convenience, or anything about raising a family that majority of people would want. I do care about being able to make some sort of a living so I can have permission by the world today to live my life in peace among nature or nomadically on the road...and I care about preserving history because it's fascinating and lifetimes of knowledge that people don't know that could come in handy when the country takes an unwilling hard reset like when the Roman Empire fell. It's just been hard lately. The stress of having to compete with things now after taking a huge fall from where I've been, the fact I don't fit in because I'm just a survivalist and nomadic at heart, and people don't care about those things anymore so I don't relate to anyone... it's a long and lonely road...so I may just be too wild.

If you made it this far. I'm sorry for the long vent. Here's a picture from my adventures.
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Luckylu · 61-69, F
I know nomads are not popular in society today and are often viewed as vagabonds which usually carries a negative undertone.

Everyone is expected by society to have a steady job and live within the confines of societies expectations. It is sad really because at one point nomads could make a living by doing the odd job others don’t want to do and travel on when the job is done.

There isn’t anything wrong with living such a life if it works for you. Unfortunately we have been so conditioned to fear the stranger who doesn’t show any of society’s expectations.

Some people accomplish a form of nomad life by moving from one job to another or from one place to another, only staying a year or two before moving on.

The military in some ways supports this by having its military members move locations every 2 to 4 years. I wanted to see the world and ended up stationed at one base for 4 years and close to home. My brother didn’t want to travel and was stationed in Germany far from home.

If you want to be a nomad then do it and find what works for you. Not everyone is cut out for staying put in one place and raising a family. There isn’t anything wrong with that. Just be open to having new experiences which it sounds like you are if you like to travel around a lot.

Fitting in isn’t all it’s cracked up to be if they aren’t being true to you or themselves.
RedGrizzly · 26-30, F
@Luckylu Thank you. Really thank you for understanding all that. My family's expectations and wants for me to basically be some white collar high baller, to be wealthy, and to get married and raise a family in some posh lifestyle. But, they've known I always go against the grain. Lol To clarify, I'm not a transient like you'd see living on the streets (although I was forced to at one point for three months), but I've always been one that travels and is like your backwoods survivalist trying to make it in the modern world where everything is just too reliant on convenience and what's "new".

If I ever settle down at all, it would be on a plot of land with a small cabin with a fireplace (I'd say house but you'd think it would have central heat and air, modern appliances, and on the grid). I'd love that rugged life. For now, I'm trying to save up for a CDL license to be a trucker. They get paid to live on the road and that's fine with me now more than ever. It just gets lonely at times when no one has your back or relates or just look at you like you're out of your mind.

Although, with everything going on right now in the world and the expected harsh winter coming up, my skills are becoming noticable with my family and they're asking me for advice to prepare. Lol Funny how that works, since I just said that once all these conveniences get stripped away due to say...a power grid failure, now I'm the one they're looking to.
Luckylu · 61-69, F
@RedGrizzly I would say they will eventually come to understand you and accept you as you are. But that would only be a guess on my part. My family never tried to understand me, just expected me to fall into line with their religion and way of life. They never understood why I would go off and not talk to them for a while. I couldn’t even do that without them coming to my door to check up on me and make sure I was all right when all I wanted was to be left alone.

Good choice on the truck driving to satisfy your nomad desires. It can be lonely but if you get a steady route you can make friends along it and have a few online to support you and keep you company.
RedGrizzly · 26-30, F
@Luckylu yeah, I understand that. They probably won't agree with anything or they may just come to a "agree to disagree" place...but everyone's life is different. They may learn that or not but that'll be on them. And thank you, I've had to figure out something that's more tangible and that's what I have so far. Lol Y'all are cool people to talk to and I enjoy talking to you.
Luckylu · 61-69, F
@RedGrizzly Feel free to talk with me any time. I don’t like seeing people hurting over what other people do or say just because they are different. I know what that is like.
@Luckylu see your burning the night oil, just woke have a glass of wine back to bed,
had to read another story,
Luckylu · 61-69, F
@jackrabbit10 No work tomorrow so no need to worry about having to wake up early. lol
@Luckylu worked most my life I am use to getting up early,,,feed my cows early,,swith pastures,every day job,
Luckylu · 61-69, F
@jackrabbit10 You have a farm or ranch?
@Luckylu yes I have both ,5 acres,it its a hillbilly farm ranch, I have a two cow garage,,4 acres of pasture, but to me it is mine,,,I live in Tennessee
Luckylu · 61-69, F
@jackrabbit10 Nice. I dated a man who had a ranch. I loved helping him. Learned to drive one of those huge tractors and he thought me a city girl so was surprised I knew how to ride a horse bareback. lol
@Luckylu now that is a ranch, my ranch is a hobby, I live 14 miles from town, back in the hill,,trees hollars, the profile i had up was taken from my fromt yard,the big green field,