Why do I sabotage myself

I'm at 1,268 calories for the day. It would have been under 900 had I not eaten the cookie. I was also trying to eat more to avoid feeling like death like lastnight. I probably will sleep better but I feel disgusted at myself

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iQuit · F

You're body has a mind of it's own and subconsciously motivates you to pamper yourself when given the opportunity.
Do vitamins contain calories?

FutureIdol · 31-35, M

@iQuit I'm not sure I don't take vitamins

iQuit · F

@FutureIdol mind if I ask
If you consider sleep helps reduce your caloric intake?
I know nonetheless just consuming under 1000 calories is tough in the long run.

FutureIdol · 31-35, M

@iQuit I don't consider sleeping as helping slash calories. I think it's because I associate calories with food and exercise as opposed to sleeping or not doing anything.

iQuit · F

@FutureIdol no what I meant was for when you don't rest as needed -it drives up your caloric intake because your body needs added fuel considering you couldn't properly rest. I'm aware exercising burns many calories depending on what activity you choose to do

FutureIdol · 31-35, M

@iQuit Oh okay I get it now. Sorry I just heard awhile ago that you burn calories when you sleep and thought that's what you meant. I'm just dumb.

iQuit · F

@FutureIdol it's ok. i was curious on how you cope with managing having such a strict dietary lifestyle. Calories vs carb vs sugar intake- do you stick to basic foods? I'm sorry for asking so many questions.

i tried but I was judged by many as anorexic though I was never frail. I simply list my larger persona. It's sad on any side of the spectrum being judged for just existing.