I Am Sad

Me and my family took my dog to see the behaviorist. While she's very good, it'll be about $400 a visit. She's way too expensive and not covered by insurance. I feel like all of this is my fault. I'm the one who picked that dog out of all of the dogs in the litter. I bet they all turned out normal yet I picked out one with a mental disorder. I might even have to use my paycheck to help the expense of the dog and I don't make much already. I feel like I brought this problem to my family. I don't think my dog will get better without the help of the behaviorist but we might not be able to use her. I hate that my parents are not comforting. I'm crying and my dad yells at me for crying like I am an idiot. He does that to my mom too. I don't understand what scenarios he approves of for when it's allowed to cry. If only I had a sitcom family. One where when the child cries, the parents give her a hug and comfort her and tell her how much they love her until she calms down. But no, that doesn't happen in real life.