I'm sad. Title to short blah blah

I had a long day today working. I got a lot done which is great but my heart is heavy. I'm still processing the break up and today was unexpectedly emotionally draining. I have a whole host of emotions that require labeling, processing and resolution. I am going to buy some water color paint and get back to painting my feelings this week. I think I'll get a journal too,the one I have only has a few pages left. My ex got it for me. He wasn't a bad person,he did a lot of good and for the most part our relationship was pleasant but he needs to heal before he can be a healthy non-codependent partner. Part of me hopes he heals and we get back together one day. That's not a healthy desire but it's there. I miss him and that's just a feeling I have to endure until it fades away forever like all the ones before.