I don’t know what to do anymore

I don’t know what to do anymore. Life is getting harder and harder to live and I don’t know what to do. I have to pretend to be happy because if I don’t people will ask why. And that’s the thing. I don’t know why. I don’t know why I’m sad. I have a good life. A house. Parents who love me. But I’m still sad. My boyfriend though. He’s going through stuff. He lost his mom to cancer a few months ago. He has no parents or friends. I have to pretend that I’m okay and I’m happy because I have to be. I shouldn’t be sad. I should be happy. And I just don’t know what to do anymore.

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Renkon · M

Do you feel an emptiness in your heart? Like there is a void to fill? A lack in sense of direction or clarity?

From my experience, you are at an age when your body and mind are primed to function at its peak. The stagnation feels like killing you. You need to take a break, spend some quiet time alone, and find out what you want out of life. Then proceed to set a goal, as well as a simple set of steps or decisions to get there.

You don't need to be specific or detailed with your idea; just enough to point you in the right direction. That sense of clarity will calm you and reduce your anxiety.

Otherwise, life will feel like a crisis, and you may make reckless decisions.