I Am Sad

Today I went to the museum with my dad today. I saw neat artifacts from the Chinese Dynasties and the Spanish Colonial Period in California. The oil on canvas art from 1850-1950 was amazing as well. My dad and I sat in a room that played a film about art. I met a docent named Hilary(not Clinton) that sat a seat away from me talking to me about art. When I told her I was an artist out of practice due to university she moved a seat closer telling me that if art is in me to no give up. That she was "dried up" because she had a family. She reminded me of my old best friend Holly that was British and is/was an artist. But I feel like Holly would've told me the same thing. It's been 3yrs since we last talked and the art I saw made me miss her again.
My childhood best friend Sam moved to my state a few months ago but she got in a fight with her family and is saving up to return to the South. I realized after I graduate and come back home I'm going to be alone again. Sadly "Paper Hearts" by Tori Kelly isn't helping.