I Am Sad
and thats putting it mildly, I am having my usual psycho attacks.. worse cz the only person who can calm me wont talk to me. And I try to think past it, but I cant, I am stuck. And I have nobody to talk to.
Whole day I spent crying myself to sleep, waking up, checking phone, repeat. now I cant even sleep, I am going crazy. I can barely open my eyes, I cant do anything. I am trying to write it off, I know it wont work.. I am just trying..
I feel like I am not me, this is somebody else, I have never been this abnormal, or crazy before. I cant handle this, I am a silent spectre in my own body. and I am scared, I will do something really stupid, cz I am beyond sad, I am in that zone where people only think of cutting themselves and such.. and I swear to god this isnt me, this sooo isnt me.
I am so so scared. Its weekend, but come monday, I have to go to work, and I cant. I know I cant. I cant concentrate. I cant even think or write coherently.
Whole day I spent crying myself to sleep, waking up, checking phone, repeat. now I cant even sleep, I am going crazy. I can barely open my eyes, I cant do anything. I am trying to write it off, I know it wont work.. I am just trying..
I feel like I am not me, this is somebody else, I have never been this abnormal, or crazy before. I cant handle this, I am a silent spectre in my own body. and I am scared, I will do something really stupid, cz I am beyond sad, I am in that zone where people only think of cutting themselves and such.. and I swear to god this isnt me, this sooo isnt me.
I am so so scared. Its weekend, but come monday, I have to go to work, and I cant. I know I cant. I cant concentrate. I cant even think or write coherently.
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