Everything under construction
I wish to sign off with a new group of letters forming what seem like sentences and paragraphs to see if I could make what is going on a little more clear, so I can earn the right, the hard earned right to eff off for awhile.
I don't want to make such a big deal about learning this time around, but that is what is being attempted.
When a renewed focus of learning is enacted it unsettles what makes up the inner, this to be exact is why doing a running commentary and just sharing a 10% of the material being gone through is for certain types of people an error, a mistake, a counter-productive habit, that is like a trap one thinks they need to exist in because it's just the way things are.
When I go on about learning I fear I may be coming off as a sort that is putting on a putting on, .... see how awful I am at diagnosing this thing?
So it causes an unsettled state, that should be plain at least from what I say here.
Now what is being learned?
Well what is happening is causing a wanting a hyper awareness.
There is no communicative way I can explore what is being covered, and without any explanation, it will either look like randomness, which is the classic form of uselessness, or it will be seen as each thing shared is reflective of my own opinions.
Or something like that.
This is a state where any added tension means that it must be out of the equation, there will not be simply a way that this could be done, doing stuff on SW while the informal Informing Campaign.
I most warmly thank whom it concerns for aiding me in a small way to make this decision, a nudge, a hey, take this unwelcome welcome as a sign to do what you gotta do.
I go into my own think tank, I require nothing else but solitude with the resources. When a meaningful amount of time elapses, a new trait will be there, the trait of being able to integrate learnings organically.
I don't do anything effecting anyone else, only then can my mind be at ease, so as to re-enter the highly uneasy waters of "what's happening, and what led to it"
I don't want to make such a big deal about learning this time around, but that is what is being attempted.
When a renewed focus of learning is enacted it unsettles what makes up the inner, this to be exact is why doing a running commentary and just sharing a 10% of the material being gone through is for certain types of people an error, a mistake, a counter-productive habit, that is like a trap one thinks they need to exist in because it's just the way things are.
When I go on about learning I fear I may be coming off as a sort that is putting on a putting on, .... see how awful I am at diagnosing this thing?
So it causes an unsettled state, that should be plain at least from what I say here.
Now what is being learned?
Well what is happening is causing a wanting a hyper awareness.
There is no communicative way I can explore what is being covered, and without any explanation, it will either look like randomness, which is the classic form of uselessness, or it will be seen as each thing shared is reflective of my own opinions.
Or something like that.
This is a state where any added tension means that it must be out of the equation, there will not be simply a way that this could be done, doing stuff on SW while the informal Informing Campaign.
I most warmly thank whom it concerns for aiding me in a small way to make this decision, a nudge, a hey, take this unwelcome welcome as a sign to do what you gotta do.
I go into my own think tank, I require nothing else but solitude with the resources. When a meaningful amount of time elapses, a new trait will be there, the trait of being able to integrate learnings organically.
I don't do anything effecting anyone else, only then can my mind be at ease, so as to re-enter the highly uneasy waters of "what's happening, and what led to it"
46-50, M
