I hope that the other night can happen again . I feel that everything needs to fall into place for it to work... I find myself re-tracing my steps

in order to remember the procedure... All I know is that something happened the other night, I "felt" something that didn't feel like it came from me.... I drink so much and smoke and poppers that I was out of my mind... then I played that song.....I drink so much alcohol that the term "spirits' makes me wonder what I was shown that night, or is it all just in my head a hallucination?