The irrefutable reasons why i can only post here and not engage with anyone
1. I lack the gift of communication at length with others, and this is the only kind that would matter for my personal growth.
2. When i taste deep literature and thoughts, i always get uprooted, and face an existential dread and disorientation, which makes my recorded thoughts faulty, and distasteful.
3. I have no doubt if i was able to, i'd find much aid here, it is not that i have a low view of everyone, it's my nature and regard towards myself that makes this the way it is.
4. As bleak a view as possible to be held allows actuality to have pleasant aspects, where nothing pleasant was conceived, but for personal progress for me, i have only myself to rely on, nothing is healthy, but abnormal.
Afterward
I will now feel like there is no reason to log back in, except to write purposelessly into the void, or give myself videos that can play relatively without disruptions as they would if played directly from where they come from.
There is joy and paradise in a solitary use of my resources alone, no direct contact with another is possible for the reasons above, ultimately it's solely my fault, to blame anyone is deception most vile.
2. When i taste deep literature and thoughts, i always get uprooted, and face an existential dread and disorientation, which makes my recorded thoughts faulty, and distasteful.
3. I have no doubt if i was able to, i'd find much aid here, it is not that i have a low view of everyone, it's my nature and regard towards myself that makes this the way it is.
4. As bleak a view as possible to be held allows actuality to have pleasant aspects, where nothing pleasant was conceived, but for personal progress for me, i have only myself to rely on, nothing is healthy, but abnormal.
Afterward
I will now feel like there is no reason to log back in, except to write purposelessly into the void, or give myself videos that can play relatively without disruptions as they would if played directly from where they come from.
There is joy and paradise in a solitary use of my resources alone, no direct contact with another is possible for the reasons above, ultimately it's solely my fault, to blame anyone is deception most vile.
46-50, M
