im so over everything

I been having a rough week where i ended up bruising my hard and lashing out .. I gave been 4 months back to back in my home with my hyper son.. He never went back to the daycare i had him in bc i suspected abuse.. i called acs and from there i had problems putting him in school bc there is no space and with my current voucher i cant reach anyone to transfer him to another daycare.. 3 months no one has helped me not even Human resources bc they say they have nothing to do with it.. I had called numbers i started another cps case and they did not help.. I ended up getting preventive services for my son because he is delayed and non verbal .. i cried on the phone bc i told her i have mo family no money for clothes this winter and i wanna kill myself .. i have no ine but an abusive ex to turn to... i hate living bc i never in a killio years thought i would lose my kind like this and im honestly scared that im gonna do aomething to myself... i need time for myself imagine waking up everyday and just be home taking care of children with no financial assitance and barely furniture... i cry so much i have no appettite and im so tired physically from bending down to clean after ny child 25/7 no breaks no me time nothing not even a breath of fresh air