when i was young i didn't feel as alone as i do now

unfortunately my parents divorced,the marriage fell apart and i left home and went into a childrens home, then after that a young persons hostel run by the catholic rescue society, i was around age 16 and 17 at the time....back then i had other guys and girls also around me, living together...it was a real buzz, a happening time as they said back then, lots of fun and euphoric times back then...but now i'm middle aged, now live alone in an apartment, lost touch with all the people i knew back then in the early to mid 1990s...and are by myself now, and at times i feel alone and 'out of it'...i have anxiety problems so stay indoors a lot....i wish i had a girlfriend or a relationship but know i have nothing to offer anybody at the moment.


i wish i could go back to the old times to my youth, in the care homes and hostel in the height of the 90s...but i'm not there anymore, that was long ago, and now i'm lonesome alone and feel cut off.


if you have thoughts on this id like that.