dreams, tidal waves, and owning your emotional intensity not withdraw from it

I dreamt a lot of tidal waves in my life, for a very long time those dreams would keep my heart pounding fast and hard when I heard the trains passing by a couple of hundred yards away in my old life apartment at night. It was that bad. It was one of my reoccurring themes. Was. I'll tell you. I've never had a dream identical to the next, there was always a change, but for a long time, years, I felt powerless in those dreams and for those who were on EP and followed me then, it felt like walking in the dark to nowhere but more waves, bigger and bigger, darker, crushing, me, but also other people. The first time I made it, I survived and passed over the black monster into a small wooden crate lost in the middle of the ocean. I did it again in a boat, I dove into the waves, I surfed it barefoot, and the last dream I did what Elsa did in Frozen, now I won't elaborate here but that character helped me a lot and I don't feel like I'm exactly like a character or someone else but Elsa is my match in many ways. I stopped the wave, and I dissolved it, and I've never dreamt of a tidal wave ever since. Been years.