I think my dreams are either trying to heal me or break me^^

I had a dream where I went back to the place I grew up and just walked around the neighborhood, looking at different places and seeing flashbacks of things that happened there.

I walked past a fast food restaurant and looked in thru the window and I could see me and my "friends" my "ex" punching me and then I just flinched and kept walking. It was so damn strange. I saw my friend breaking her arm at the trampoline, I heard gun shots from when my friend fired his gun right next to me, I saw myself putting on a mask to hide the fact that I was living in constant fear. After walking around, this friend saw me, so I ran, suddenly I snapped out of the visions and I was running to hide behind a tiny house that I've hid behind in the past, hearing him talk on the phone saying that he saw me and asking whoever was on the phone to look for me.

I woke up feeling exhausted, scared and just disoriented..